I will now attempt...

...to only start the day off with some soy yoghurt.
I will probably be (out of my mind) starving in two hours and I won't be able to get lunch before 1pm which is 5 hours away.
But... I gotta make sure my body gets used to this, I can't be stuffing my face anymore so "Tough luck dear chubby body"

Camilla is coming home today!!!!
I can't wait to see her, it's amazing how you can miss a friend that much. I've gotten so used to her being there all the time, so having to get used to her not being there... it was weird!

*Note to self, make sure to keep soy yoghurt in fridge longer. It's not fantastic when it's not cold...ugh

So far new "diet" is going well.
I did the whole 'take a full body picture of yourself the way you look right now" and I swear to you... Looking at that picture makes me want to kill myself.
I can't believe I let it go this far, but it is also motivation.
I refuse to be that person whom you see eating something healthy and think "Yeaahhhhh right, we know you pig out when you get home!!" and right now I am.... I won't be anymore!!!
Kathy and I have it all planned, we WILL be slimmer by the time AFI tour Europe again.
Let me tell you, there's nothing more depressing than standing next to the perfection that is Davey Havok and then looking like THIS!!!
It's one thing to look bad in general, but to look bad while standing next to someone who looks THAT good... that doesn't help the selfesteem haha

Last night I was SO sick, seriously! I felt like I was on fire all night and I had to remain seated or laying down cause everytime I got up I nearly passed out!! It's rare that I feel THAT bad!!
I'm better now though, I went to bed at like 7.30pm so I got some well deserved rest.

I gotta start taking some damn calls now...

ZXA