Wednesday, February 4, 2009
RIP
Blogspot.
I gave in and started on Livejournal again cause all my friends are there.
http://zoeaimee.livejournal.com
Add me if you are on there :)
-- Post From My iPhone
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Inner peace
You know how you missed somebody so much it hurts your very insides but you didn't quite realize it entirely untill you spoke to that person again.
I just had that happen to me...
Laura...
We used to talk everyday, staying up till obscene hours till we simply couldn't keep our eyes open anymore.
We called each other soulsisters cause we connected on such a deep level it sometimes freaked us out completely.
The fairytale was somewhat broken when she started getting really busy with work and school.
In the beginning I was bitter, I missed her and had trouble dealing without her but soon it became daily life.
We would send each other the occasional comment on Myspace or Facebook but I can truly say that I feel like we haven't truly TALKED together for almost 2 years.
It's crazy how much time has passed by and how quickly.
Now just this very morning we talked on AIM, it was somewhat rushed because we are both at work but I can honestly say it was the first time we TRULY talked in all this time and it makes my heart swell with love and longing.
I want what we had back and this time I am gonna fight for it.
I know we both have more time now, it's just a matter of getting back to that time... Re-connect again.
Even know she would sometimes send me a message telling me what was going on in her life, I feel like I haven't truly known what she's been up to this past year!!
I am just as much to blame as her, I could have been more persistent.
Anyway, things will be different now, I can feel it.
I missed and I love you Laura, I can't wait to re-connect with you again soul sister and I really hope you will come visit <3
-- Post From My iPhone
I just had that happen to me...
Laura...
We used to talk everyday, staying up till obscene hours till we simply couldn't keep our eyes open anymore.
We called each other soulsisters cause we connected on such a deep level it sometimes freaked us out completely.
The fairytale was somewhat broken when she started getting really busy with work and school.
In the beginning I was bitter, I missed her and had trouble dealing without her but soon it became daily life.
We would send each other the occasional comment on Myspace or Facebook but I can truly say that I feel like we haven't truly TALKED together for almost 2 years.
It's crazy how much time has passed by and how quickly.
Now just this very morning we talked on AIM, it was somewhat rushed because we are both at work but I can honestly say it was the first time we TRULY talked in all this time and it makes my heart swell with love and longing.
I want what we had back and this time I am gonna fight for it.
I know we both have more time now, it's just a matter of getting back to that time... Re-connect again.
Even know she would sometimes send me a message telling me what was going on in her life, I feel like I haven't truly known what she's been up to this past year!!
I am just as much to blame as her, I could have been more persistent.
Anyway, things will be different now, I can feel it.
I missed and I love you Laura, I can't wait to re-connect with you again soul sister and I really hope you will come visit <3
-- Post From My iPhone
Friday, January 23, 2009
It's been a little while...
Haven't really been in the mood to blog.
Can't say I am now either but I figured I should keep this thing going anyway.
So what's going on, you may ask?!
Alot actually but not stuff I wish to talk about in public, I don't want people to get hurt.
The AFI competition is finally almost over and I couldn't be more relieved, it has caused ALOT of trouble for many people! There has been much jealousy, rage, confusion, joy, disappointment, tears and laughter!! wow...
In general I am happy for everyone who won, especially Natacia and Brock.
There were some things that upset me, it had nothing to do with the winners but the choices AFI made.
There is little to do about it now so I will just focus on being excited about an upcoming new album.
My former joy for this year had slowly but surely disappeared.
January has been rough so far, much fighting has been going on and there is nothing I hate more than fighting.
Hearts have been broken but are slowly healing again...
I really hope it was just a rough start and that it'll still be amazing, I need it to be amazing.
Here's to hoping,
ZXA
Can't say I am now either but I figured I should keep this thing going anyway.
So what's going on, you may ask?!
Alot actually but not stuff I wish to talk about in public, I don't want people to get hurt.
The AFI competition is finally almost over and I couldn't be more relieved, it has caused ALOT of trouble for many people! There has been much jealousy, rage, confusion, joy, disappointment, tears and laughter!! wow...
In general I am happy for everyone who won, especially Natacia and Brock.
There were some things that upset me, it had nothing to do with the winners but the choices AFI made.
There is little to do about it now so I will just focus on being excited about an upcoming new album.
My former joy for this year had slowly but surely disappeared.
January has been rough so far, much fighting has been going on and there is nothing I hate more than fighting.
Hearts have been broken but are slowly healing again...
I really hope it was just a rough start and that it'll still be amazing, I need it to be amazing.
Here's to hoping,
ZXA
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
I will now attempt...
...to only start the day off with some soy yoghurt.
I will probably be (out of my mind) starving in two hours and I won't be able to get lunch before 1pm which is 5 hours away.
But... I gotta make sure my body gets used to this, I can't be stuffing my face anymore so "Tough luck dear chubby body"
Camilla is coming home today!!!!
I can't wait to see her, it's amazing how you can miss a friend that much. I've gotten so used to her being there all the time, so having to get used to her not being there... it was weird!
*Note to self, make sure to keep soy yoghurt in fridge longer. It's not fantastic when it's not cold...ugh
So far new "diet" is going well.
I did the whole 'take a full body picture of yourself the way you look right now" and I swear to you... Looking at that picture makes me want to kill myself.
I can't believe I let it go this far, but it is also motivation.
I refuse to be that person whom you see eating something healthy and think "Yeaahhhhh right, we know you pig out when you get home!!" and right now I am.... I won't be anymore!!!
Kathy and I have it all planned, we WILL be slimmer by the time AFI tour Europe again.
Let me tell you, there's nothing more depressing than standing next to the perfection that is Davey Havok and then looking like THIS!!!
It's one thing to look bad in general, but to look bad while standing next to someone who looks THAT good... that doesn't help the selfesteem haha
Last night I was SO sick, seriously! I felt like I was on fire all night and I had to remain seated or laying down cause everytime I got up I nearly passed out!! It's rare that I feel THAT bad!!
I'm better now though, I went to bed at like 7.30pm so I got some well deserved rest.
I gotta start taking some damn calls now...
ZXA
I will probably be (out of my mind) starving in two hours and I won't be able to get lunch before 1pm which is 5 hours away.
But... I gotta make sure my body gets used to this, I can't be stuffing my face anymore so "Tough luck dear chubby body"
Camilla is coming home today!!!!
I can't wait to see her, it's amazing how you can miss a friend that much. I've gotten so used to her being there all the time, so having to get used to her not being there... it was weird!
*Note to self, make sure to keep soy yoghurt in fridge longer. It's not fantastic when it's not cold...ugh
So far new "diet" is going well.
I did the whole 'take a full body picture of yourself the way you look right now" and I swear to you... Looking at that picture makes me want to kill myself.
I can't believe I let it go this far, but it is also motivation.
I refuse to be that person whom you see eating something healthy and think "Yeaahhhhh right, we know you pig out when you get home!!" and right now I am.... I won't be anymore!!!
Kathy and I have it all planned, we WILL be slimmer by the time AFI tour Europe again.
Let me tell you, there's nothing more depressing than standing next to the perfection that is Davey Havok and then looking like THIS!!!
It's one thing to look bad in general, but to look bad while standing next to someone who looks THAT good... that doesn't help the selfesteem haha
Last night I was SO sick, seriously! I felt like I was on fire all night and I had to remain seated or laying down cause everytime I got up I nearly passed out!! It's rare that I feel THAT bad!!
I'm better now though, I went to bed at like 7.30pm so I got some well deserved rest.
I gotta start taking some damn calls now...
ZXA
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Back to the real world again.
The holidays are over and even though I had a couple of days of working in between them, it didn't really count.
It's officially a new year...
I'm excited about it as previously mentioned.
I did a "new year" cleaning in our appartment, I made an actual bedroom for us instead of just using it to storage Camilla's clothes and sleeping in the livingroom.
We may end up passing out in there anyway, but it is there at least haha
After one really bad decission I managed to get my money situation under control, this is very much needed since I have to start saving hardcore for AFI touring Europe. I should have started a year ago, but that didn't happen so now I have no time to play around anymore.
I threw out all the candy I had and drank nothing but water all day :O This is huge for me, let me tell you haha
I plan to start actually using my "mini gym" instead of just dusting it off.
A lot of changing is gonna happen, it has already started.
Camilla is coming home on wednesday and I'm excited about it.
I've fallen way too much into my old lifestyle of living online while she was in Australia and where as I do like spending alot of time online... I know it's not healthy for me.
I know having her back here will get me out of the house more cause then I actually have someone to go places *I* enjoy going to with.
I do adore my other friends but going out and getting drunk is not my idea of a fun evening, obviously!!
Anyway, I'm off to finish the dishes, talk to Kathy and try out my new bedroom <3
xoxo
ZXA
PS! Remember to check out our new website AFIBlog
Mood: Accomplished
Currently listening to: Erasure - A Little Respect
It's officially a new year...
I'm excited about it as previously mentioned.
I did a "new year" cleaning in our appartment, I made an actual bedroom for us instead of just using it to storage Camilla's clothes and sleeping in the livingroom.
We may end up passing out in there anyway, but it is there at least haha
After one really bad decission I managed to get my money situation under control, this is very much needed since I have to start saving hardcore for AFI touring Europe. I should have started a year ago, but that didn't happen so now I have no time to play around anymore.
I threw out all the candy I had and drank nothing but water all day :O This is huge for me, let me tell you haha
I plan to start actually using my "mini gym" instead of just dusting it off.
A lot of changing is gonna happen, it has already started.
Camilla is coming home on wednesday and I'm excited about it.
I've fallen way too much into my old lifestyle of living online while she was in Australia and where as I do like spending alot of time online... I know it's not healthy for me.
I know having her back here will get me out of the house more cause then I actually have someone to go places *I* enjoy going to with.
I do adore my other friends but going out and getting drunk is not my idea of a fun evening, obviously!!
Anyway, I'm off to finish the dishes, talk to Kathy and try out my new bedroom <3
xoxo
ZXA
PS! Remember to check out our new website AFIBlog
Mood: Accomplished
Currently listening to: Erasure - A Little Respect
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